Burn Out Brighter

I think it's time to appreciate some music; this time it's: Burn Out Brighter by Anberlin.

Live, I wanna live inspired
Die, I wanna die for something
Facing towards the heavens
I fell into a pitch black
I'm moments from landing and I'm shaking like a heart attack
Is there time, can I turn back
I've made mistakes in the past
Need a chance, can't say goodbye
Wish I could set things right tonight
Live, I wanna live inspired
Die, I wanna die for something higher than myself
Live and die for anyone else
The more I live I see this life's not about me
All I know spins out of control
Wonder what's next for a hardened soul
Nothing I earned can save me now
Here in what may be my final hour
Is there time, can I turn back
I've made mistakes, well, in the past
Need a chance, can't say goodbye
Wish I could set things right tonight
Live, I wanna live inspired
Die, I wanna die for something higher than myself
Live and die for anyone else
The more I live I see this life's not about me
Don't wanna leave this world knowing I breathed in vain
Looked out for myself, so sorry, so ashamed
Don't wanna leave this life knowing I barely tried
To chase down all my dreams that I hid away on the inside
Live, I wanna live on fire
Die, I wanna burn out brighter
Brighter than the Northern lights
Wanna live to feel the daylight
The more I live I see this life's not about me

This song is from Anberlin's newest album, New Surrender. Pretty good song, but the thing I love about this song are the lyrics.

In a nutshell, the song is about living life. Living life the way that we should: giving 100% not just to ourselves, but to others. The opening lines "Live; I wanna live inspired. Die; I want to die for something." says how I wanna live my life.

Live inspired.
I'd say this is the harder part. Many people spend their whole lives for something that inspires them; something that fuels them. Inspiration is the one thing that lets you wake up and think to yourself, "Today's a great day, let's make the best of it". it's the one thing that gives you something to look forward to each day when you wake up.

People don't know it, but they have plenty of blessings to inspire them.

Die for something.
The allure that brought soldiers to war: returning with great honor, or sacrificing yourself for your country. I know that I wanna die for something, maybe something cool like pushing someone out of the way of a moving car [but who am I kidding, most people just freeze with fright]... But I hope that as I get older, I can find something that I can dedicate myself to. That's how I view "dying for something" as. To live dedicated to one thing that when I go, it'll be one thing that will be connected to me. As if my life has been offered for that one thing. I don't know if you get it, but it makes sense to me[heh].

We'll go with living inspired for now.

Wanna be cool?

Didn't make it into Café Night. I totally said I wouldn't be mad, but I know I am. Not super mad though. It was fun enough. I'll be a spectator this time.

Anyway, here's my plan for some blog entries. Back in my myspace days I had a section about the cool people in my life. I wrote down what I honestly thought about them, then I gave them a song that I think matches them [either by mood or lyrics]. This was brought back 'cause of Gwen's little journal thing [I wish I got to read all of the ones about me]. I figured that I'd probably know a lot more about you guys after a couple years.

I do know that my first person will be Justin. He is my brother and he is at the top of my cool people list. I'll save my thoughts until the actual post.

Comment if you want one?

All the world's a stage.

Dammit Justin, I have to keep up.

For the past 3-4 years of high school I've been performing in Café Nights and Rockstocks. I can honestly say that I still get butterflies and goosebumps and act like a pussy [I LIEK ANIMALZ] every time I perform or even audition. So why do I do it? I'll be honest, I like to show off what I can do. I'm not as good as some people I know, but I'm proud of what I can do. Besides, the satisfaction I feel when it's all over makes it worthwhile. Not too shabby for a shy guy, huh.

But here's why I'm writing this: I don't think I could have done all this alone.

To all the people I've ever performed with:
You guys [and a couple girls] inspire me. Your overall awesomeness just pushes me to go for better. You guys make performing / playing fun, especially since I tend to be too serious when it comes down to it. This year's just begun, we've got plenty of time to kick ass.

To those who're always watching us:
Is there really a point of performing if nobody's going to watch? You guys put up with our stressing, our practicing, and all the other crappy boring acts [218764455 different indian dance acts, lol] just to watch us. You guys give up your time to come and support us when we need it the most. Although we end up becoming even more nervous when you scream our names, your energy fuels us to go with it. Every time I play, I dedicate it to all of you.

Aftermath

So Thanksgiving dinner wasn't all that bad! We actually ended up eating together and noone really annoyed me. After that, me and my dad decided to play a round of checkers and we ended up having fun!I won't bother trying to explain why, it's one of those things you had to be there for...
But anyway, that was great. I guess you never really need fancy super special awesome family outings to have a good time. Totally not that jealous now.

Peace! [Literally]

Rock it some more!

So, I'm gonna learn Dueling Guitars from the movie August Rush with Jason! I'll probably be doing the annoying part [the one with all the tapping and shit] and Jason will do Johnathan Rhys Meyers' part. In terms of figuring out the song, I'm halfway there. I just need to figure out a couple more bits to it -- the harder parts, unfortunately. But it's the badass part for my part. Yeeeee!

Sleep, work, and everything in between.

Man, I never do shit for holidays. My family's not much to care. Thanksgiving doesn't mean much to us as a whole. I've always been jealous of how others celebrate things with their family. My family doesn't; it's gotten to the point where we don't even know how to, and any attempts aren't veryy fulfilling.

So, it's probably best to take some time to think about what I got [TOTALLY NON CLICHÉ, RIGHT]. I'm pretty happy we're a "complete" set of a family. That's something that's becoming a little less common these days. I'm glad noone decided to bail out when things went to hell [many, many times]. Same goes for my other relatives. It saddens me that the one's I'm close to are far away. I got some nearby, but we're not the closest [reciprocally]. But I know they aren't just substitutes. The -- dare I say it -- love they have for us is just as real as the ones we're close to. I'm absolutely thankful for that.
It's one of those "it could be worse" situations. But hey, it could be worse.

One thing I gotta say that I'm really thankful for are my friends [OH MY GOD TOTALLY ORIGINAL HERE, AREN'T WE]. If you know my personality,you'd be pretty surprised how I managed to make such good friends. Try this: just think about your closest friends right now and remember how you got to know them. I gotta admit, I don't remember everything. But whatever happened, thank God. He knows how hard of a person I am to be close with [touching a lot of iffy areas here for me].

Another thing! I'm pretty happy about all my abilities. I can create my own music, design my own art, play what I wanna play. I'm never the best, I admit, but it makes me try a little hard harder to improve. The jack-of-all-trades' never had a limit to the level of his abilities!

So there's a lot I wish I had. Stuff that I could wish I could be thankful for. I'll work for them, then. [Here's to another resolution half fulfilled?] And here's my challenge for this post: besides trying to keep the things that you're thankful for, work for the ones you wish you had. You'll feel like the happiest person alive.

Oops, too long. Good thing I'm gonna have some wine to go with this cheese.